Another One Bites The Dust

“Sometimes giving up, doesn’t mean that you’ve lost.”

Many of you may have forgotten about Catalina and Jason. If so here’s a recap:

These two were first featured in my previous blog entitled ” Approaching A Potential Match In Church: Yikes!”

Catalina was struggling with whether she should ask Jason out or not. He is the worship leader at the church that she attends. I like to refer to him as a mini celebrity.

Since then she has asked him out and has continuously made ATTEMPTS to establish communication between them.

The Take Off Was A Bit Rocky…
The first interaction between the two seemed promising. She asked him out and established interest. Then sometime passed and she tried to talk to him again. Well those times didn’t go so well.

One of the times, he didn’t speak at all. There wasn’t any eye contact. Just a complete and utter failure.

The last encounter had humor, laughter and even a nice hug at the end, but she walked away with absolutely nothing. He didn’t remember her from the previous conversations. He forgot all about the fact that she asked him out. She was no closer to knowing if he liked her or not.


“There’s a possibility that it may not all be his fault.”


Here’s Why:
There has been extremely long stretches of time between each of their interactions. From what I’ve learned, men tend to be singular minded individuals. They tend to lack the ability to remember far off things, and can’t shift focus at a moments notice.

Jason talks to numerous people daily. Maybe Catalina got swept into that large crowd. There are always plenty of people vying for his attention while he is in the middle of speaking to someone.
All in all, the time and place just never seems to be ideal. Then again when  is life.


There’s Always A Lesson To Be Learned:
This has helped Catalina shift her perspective on things. It is extremely evident that this isn’t going anywhere, at least for right now. What’s the harm in taking a step back and letting Jason come to her for a change, if his interest in her is equal to her interest in him.

Some people spend their entire life chasing something that was never meant for them to have. At times, while you’re chasing the wrong thing you may miss the thing that’s right for you.

Catalina knows just how wonderful she is. It isn’t her job to convince someone of that, only to love them once they realize it.

You don’t have to agree with her take on the situation. The comment box is open for your opinion.


Dark Times

“Eventually, I got over it and embraced the person I had become and found new things to love about myself, but the weight of what I lost still weighs heavily on me today.”


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Mirror, Mirror On The Wall

My tears have evaporated into anger.

It came rolling in like a devastating monsoon.

I feel my pulse quicken as I consider destroying you.


My love has scattered leaving a vacancy.

I watched as it turned to air and floated

away into the night sky.


My thoughts of you has mutated into

an irreconizible creature.

A monster that I am lethargic to slay.


The shackles that bounded me to you have been broken,

and I am now set free.

I will never again be lored into a trap to be imprisoned.


When I’d hear your call, I always came running,

because it was too unbearable to stay away.

Now when I listen to the same call,

I am reminded of all the times I need you

and you never answered.


I am ready to jump from our mountain of memories,

into the unknown abyss below.

There, I know I can find the hope I need to reive me.


I always needed one last embrace from you,

in order to be sure that I was ready to say adieu.

How could I have been so blind?

not to see that you’ve departed my life long ago.


I watched the hurt flow into me like a river,

as I continued to drown in our past.

Eventually I setteled on a stray branch,

and pulled myself from your poisionus waters.


I pick up the pieces of all your broken promises,

feeling each of them prick my fingers,

claiming blood every time.

It’s clear knowing you is more harmful than conscientious.


I listen to all the lies you’ve ever told me,

and build a brick house with them.

Creating a fortress to keep me safe from you.


Sometimes I feel insane because I still want you to be the one.

but you can only be the one to always shatter my heart.



I’ve grown tired of pretending,

that I don’t love you.

Everytime I see you,

I just want to wrap my arms around you.


When I look into your eyes,

my lips wish to confess,

but something always prevents them.


It’s only a smile,

but my heart burns like a wild fire.

Oh, how I wish I could tell you that

somehow, I’ve grown to love you.


I want to be close to you,

a feeling I wasn’t expecting.

I must find a way to show you

that you and I are destined.


your eyes seem like glass,

and I am always looking back

at my own reflection.


This pain in my heart,

only seems to be getting worse.

I need you to relieve me.


Until then,

I’ll keep everything locked away

for the day when you’ll

be ready to listen.

Dreams: What Does Yours Mean?

Dreams are interpretations of the sub-conscious and conscious regions of your mind. There are many theories to analyzing dreams. Dreams are vital to working through frustration and emotions that you can’t seem to face in a waking state. Essentially, dreams are vital to a human beings health.

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I like to recall the details of my dream as soon as I wake, inorder to retain the most details possible. Also it is important to acknowldege the emotional feel of the dream. Now, I’m going to start writing them down to keep the memory of what happened even fresher in my mind. Who knows what I can uncover and learn about myself. When I have the key details, I look up the meaning to gain a better understanding of what my dream was really about. For example, driving a car has a deeper meaning than what you know on the surface. It is usually a symbol of who you feel is in control of your life.

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In all, this could be a way for the subconscious part of your mind to bring dormant issues, solutions, emotions, etc; to the surface. Some beleive dreams are a window to a past life or event that you were once a part of. There are some scientific studies that show some evidence to the claim. Whatever you may believe there is no disputing that there is some significance to a dream, even if you can’t remember it.

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Where Am I Getting At?

I keep seeing a particular person show up in my dreams, and I’m trying to make some sense of it. This isn’t someone I know very well or spend a lot of my day thinking about, but somehow he appears in a dream or two, every now and then. I assume this is my sub-conscious projecting the deep rooted emotion attributed to this person. Pretty much expressing all the things I can’t seem to say in person.

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Here’s The Twist

You’ve probably reached the conclusion that it’s probably “Wet Dreams” that I’m having. Nope, the kicker is we are always in perfectly normal situations and I don’t try to express any of my romantic feelings to him. How annoying is it, not even your fantasy will give you what you want.

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Seems Hopless Right?

It’s perfectly normal to have dreams such as this. It is actually a bit theraputic to act out your inner desires on some level. Now when I see him, I won’t be so wound up.

here’s a link to some more information on dreams, and a dictionary of what the symbols could possibly mean. Hope this is some help to you.

I’ll Go

I want you to stay a little longer this time,
so that I can say goodbye properly.
I can see that our hearts are traveling in opossing directions.

I still want to embrace you one last time,
so that I can inhale the sweet aroma of your sweater.
My love where are you,
don’t desert me now.

No one will win the fight this time,
because neither of us can find meaning in the other.
Say something to convince me not to give up on us.

I hear the answer in your silence this time,
although, I needed you to stay.
I think I’m finally ready to surrender to our enevitable fate.

I don’t feel like crying this time,
because the anger has finally left my soul.
I can finally see a tomorrow around the bend without you.

I take your hand one last time,
to be sure that you no longer have a shadow
roaming throughout the corners of my heart.
A new thought has taken it’s place.

I won’t be the one to call this time,
because there isn’t anything left to say,
other than goodbye.

Scoring A Date The Unconventinal Way: Did Someone Say Online Dating?

Hello world!!!!. I feel extremely quirky right now must be the new pumkin spice coffee I tried this morning. I have a great story for you on online dating. Now we all have some reservatons about making a connection online. Most of the time we assume we’re going to find tons of frogs only seeking booty calls. In some cases that is a possibility, but what if there is a male counter part also seeking something meaningful?

Everyone say hello to Amanda. Amanda has done the conventional ways of finding a date, which range from giving a guy her number at a party, a cute stranger on the street stopping to give her a compliment, and starting a romance at work or school. Long story short, all these beginnings didn’t pan out to lead her any closer to the fairy tale of finding the one.

One day Amanada decided to create a online profile on and threw her fishing pole into a entirely new pond. Now, suddenly the possibilities seemed endless and after a few chats and profile views she settled on a prospect she thought suited her the best. She began to like “Jared’s” personality and decided to meet.

The feeling was mutual and they planned a date. Sadly, the picture didn’t match the man. He wasn’t as visually appetizing, but the date continued. After advice from her friends, she decided to keep at it. Perhaps, there would be a spark…….

Unfortunately someone forgot to light the fuse on the spark and things fizzled shortly. Not the happy ending you thought it would be right? That’s okay and completely normal. Amanda just hasn’t found the right guy yet, but she is fairing pretty good in my opinion.

There were some lessons learned. The most important was the fact that she didn’t judge him based on his appearance. Although, some things prompted her to close the book before turning to the next chapter; she still gave him a second chance. Gee, this sounds like some advice I posted in a previous post.

She is definitely putting herself out there in letting the world know that she is SINGLE and LOOKING.

There is an actual study of just how well women and men fair when it comes to online dating. You may discover some pointers on what you’re doing incorrectly on your profile. check out the link here:

Feel free to drop your thoughts in the comments box below and participate in the new poll. I know you must’ve missed it.

“Surrender” ~ A Random Emotion

I look out, and watch as the moonlight dances across the night sky.
It is here in this moment that I think of you.
I recall your dark piercing eyes and how they glimmered like stars.
Then for a moment they were shinning on me,
and I felt the earth move beneath my feet.

That night you sparked something inside of me,
that I was certain had been lost long ago.
The eagerness to be close to you sprouted, and grew, and grew,
until I could no longer contain it.
I had to say Hello.

I felt my lips quiver as I said the words, while searching your eyes.
I found reticence and vulnerability hiding behind them.
I touched your hand as I remembered the robust moon
lighting my way in the darkness.

I could see that you weren’t ready,
to embrace me with open arms.
I let my hands fall from its hold on you,
unsure if I would truly let go.

My hello had turned into goodbye.

I wanted to forget everything that you had awakened within me,
but seeing the moon always reminded me of the light
that you’ve brought into my life.
How could I turn away from you,
When you have brought meaning to my dark sky.

I’m sure the moon once had to teach the stars,
how to shine.
I’ll show you the same.
The only remaining choice is to wait
until you’re ready to surrender.

We All Need Second Chances: Maybe It’s You

I believe that it’s important for you to be the best version of yourself in order to know what it is you’re looking for, because of that I have been listening to other point of views regarding women and dating. I am confident that I have come pretty far with my personal evolution, but I’m sure there are some flaws in myself that I just don’t see. Recently, I came across another helpful relationship video that explains the common things women tend to do wrong. So if you’re constantly going through guys and dates that lead to nowhereville, there is the possibility that it’s you. This was a bit of a eye opener for me because I tend to do these things myself. I have decided to try and follow these steps the next time I ask someone out, and I already have someone in mind. Here are a summary of the most crucial parts.

1: Throw out the one strike rule:

According to the dating expert, in order for a woman to be open minded, you must give at least second and third chances before putting up the wall towards a potential match. I agree to a degree. We are all humanly flawed and  sometimes it takes  more than one attempt to get things right. Think of the hardest test you took in your life, and how studying and attempts it took you to get out on top.  Next it is the possibility that the social blunders are attributed to nervousness. It isn’t easy to express yourself when your heart is pounding as loud as a drum. Think of all the times you were interacting with someone you really liked. Are you going to pretend that there were no social blunders and butterflies because of it?

2: Don’t be subtle:

I am absolutely guilty of this at times. A hint isn’t good enough anymore and a smile doesn’t make your intentions clear either. Uggh. I’m getting exhausted and I’ve only reached number 2. Men need things spelled out for them the way a toddler does. Along with the smile, you need to incorporate touch and be more direct in your questions and answers. It doesn’t sound hard until you have to actually do this to suit your specific situation. Don’t forget to make it fun. It’s never easy to go outside of your comfort zone and risk your feelings not being reciprocated. We all have our fears about this, it we didn’t then we wouldn’t be human. The question you need to ask yourself is simply, isn’t this person worth the risk. After all the outcome could be the most meaningful relationship you’ve ever had. I would just keep things in perspective and be mindful that sometimes men need a little push.

3: Commit a day out of your week to being social:

For the modern day independent woman, you might be thinking that you don’t have any spare time to commit to this. Guess what, it just as simple as walking outside. There are single men everywhere, you just have to pay attention. There is a Huffington post article that lists 101 places to actually meet single men. I highly suggest skimming this list because you’d be surprised to see just where they are hiding in plain sight.

Here’s the link:

4: Be truly open to all possibilities:

It’s ok to ask for help sometimes. The more you open your social circle the higher the probability of finding a great guy. Put it out there that you are single and looking. Recruit your friends and family members to find more potantial people to hit if off with. Also don’t let your own expectations and delusions hinder you from giving a unconventional person a chance. We are all guilty of this even me. Now I find myself begging the question “What if I missed out on something great?”

I know this sounds like a lot of work to just get noticed by the right guy, but hiding yourself away isn’t going to make him appear any sooner. I suggest that just work on it day by day, and who knows what possibilities will end up coming your way.